It's pretty sad.

Yesterday was a sad day. I have known for a while that my cat Alara hasn't been feeling well. Since last December she has been sneezing. She was also having trouble breathing. We took her to the vet, and he determined that she must have nasal pollups. He was going to have to refer us on to K-State animal hospital to do any treatment. The cost for that would have started somewhere around $1,000.00. That was just his estimate. We decided not to pursue treatment.

As time went by, her breathing got worse, and slowly we noticed a problem with one of her eyes. It was very gunky and started to film over. When I noticed that it was looking pretty bad I took her to the vet again. The vet that was there that day was just filling in for our regular vet. She noticed that Alara's face was looking kind of flat, and her eye was pushing out some. She checked some things out and determined that Alara had a brain tumor. She told me that Alara seemed healthy at the time, and that I needed to watch for changes in her personality. When she stopped eating, that meant that she could no longer smell, and that meant it was probably time to put her down.

I knew that day was going to come eventually, but I couldn't bear the thought of having to make that decision. All I could think was, "How do I make an appointment to kill my cat?" Over a couple of months, she continued to get worse. She would push her little head up aginst us to releave her pain. When I saw that she wasn't able to make it to her litter box even though it was around the corner, I finally saw that she really wasn't okay. She didn't play anymore. She only layed around. She would hide too. So I made the decision that it was time to take her in.

I made the appointment on Monday morning and took the afternoon off on Tuesday. The same vet was there this time as was there last time. She knew that we had already decided that we wern't going to persue any treatment. I had to sign a thing saying it was okay to euthinize her. I got to be with her. We went into the surgery room. They put the gas mask on her little face so that she would be put under and wouldn't feel anything. Once she was asleep, the vet put the serynge into her little leg and asked me when I was ready. I pet Alara some more and then I said "okay." It only took a minute for her heart to stop beating. I pet her some more and then we wraped her in her blanket.

We took her home to burry her. Adam had dug a hole under a tree for her. It's a nice spot. I was relieved that he had already done that. I took her out of the box and put the bag that she was in, into the hole. Adam covered her. The other animals were very perceptive of my sadness. They were very loving to me. I told you animals know things.

I miss my baby kitty already. I had her for almost 6 1/2 years. That's longer than I've had Adam! She was a very special animal companion. I wish I didn't feel so sad.

The phone rings...

Adam: Your phone is ringing.
Lauren: What phone?
Adam: Your cell phone. Are you riding with Jenny today?
Lauren: Is it Monday? What day is it?
Adam: Well...it's Sunday.
Lauren: No.

I rush out to the living room to see who called. Thinking it might me an emergency, but most likely it's a drunk dial.

Message one: 1:09 a.m.
Rachel: There's just so much s*it that has happened in one night. And I am laughing and not crying. So I know it sounds like crying but don't worry. This is Rachel. And okay, so, I drove, number A) I drove to Iowa on a whim to see my boyfriend play Frisbee because number A) I'm f-ed up...just generally. And then we went to this party after the tournament where we were getting really drunk and then the f-ing, there was a fire in the bar! Like, a fire! We were on the 7th floor and there was a fire and we had to run downstairs. It was actually kinda scarey and there was smoke everywhere. Then...you need to let me leave a message Josh, and then you're number 2 after the message.

Message two: 2:12 a.m.
Rachel: And then this guy named Barrett, who is on the Frisbee team got arrested for mouthing off to a cop. And then everyone gave $300.00 so that Barrett could get out of jail. And then, but, did I tell you about the f-ing fire that was at this bar I was at? I mean this whole night is just f-ing out of control. I wish nothing more than that I could be talking to you right now. Because I need some, f-ing, I need to be talking to someone that I can trust. Because only nothing but crazy ass mother f-ing s*it has been happening all night. And I'm drunk and I can't trust anyone but you, Laur Laur. You're my bff. I heard it from you and I hope you had fun. My recording time is expiring.

Message three: 2:57 am
Shawn: Lauren, it's all your fault there was a fire, Barrett's in jail. You can't abuse the ________ (this is left blank because I am unsure what privilege Shaw was refering to) privilege and there's a can of Planters cashews for you. Get over here now! Believe in the light and the light will come to you. Rachel is drunk. Help me! Bye.

So much to be happy about!

Today I am hosting a baby shower for my sister-in-law. She is due in November. The reality of being and aunt didn't really hit me until I saw Emily last night. She has a cute little baby belly. Last time I saw her she wasn't really showing. I'm excited to play aunt! She's having a little boy, but they're not telling the name they picked.

Another reason to be so happy is because Nathan and Marika are getting married in 35 days. That is so close! I am excited to be a part of the wedding. I get to take time off work and be with family and friends. It is going to be an amazing time. I love me some celebration! I also get to go to Colorado this coming weekend for a bridal shower for Marika. I like that too!

Rachel gave me some good advice last night. I was cleaning my house to prepare for the shower and Rach sent me a text asking if I had heard the new Kanye West album. I downloaded it having never heard it. Only because it came highly recommended from Rachel. I love it! Thank you Rachel! Thank you Kanye!

My husband...the joke teller.

Adam left me a message at work today. It said,
"Lock your doors! The carnies are in town! Lock them in the parking lot and lock them when you're driving. The carnies will stop at nothing."

Quote of the Day

With a completely straight face, Adam said,
"Last night, I was so dehydrated my brain dried out."
When I began to laugh he said,
"That's what mom and dad said. You don't think that could happen? It did."

Fat March

Have you ever seen the show Fat March? We watched it for a little while this evening. I almost felt bad watching it...almost. It is about a group of fat people walking 500 miles. One of the women fell and made a really big deal about how much it hurt. When she stood up it appeared she only had a skinned knee. We pushed rewind three or four times. It's so funny to watch people fall.